Someone told me that. “For us to move forward, we need to step backward.” I agree. This is true when I joined the Singles Love Life Retreat a few months ago.
I consider myself as a goal-oriented person. Every year, I update my bucket list and dream board. I would look at the list every night and the board every morning. This has been my routine for quire sometime, as if my goals were written in stone. Looking at my dreams in vivid color gives me a sense of euphoria and confidence.
Last year, I envisioned myself as someone successful. With a promising career in the corporate world and with the people that I meet along the way. I was confident that I was going to make it. With my job back then, I felt blessed that I could share in the expenses at home and buy what I want.
One time, after buying a few items at a mall, I waked around and decided to enter this quaint bookstore. I sat at one of the chairs facing the bookshelves and pondered on my life. I was there wearing my favorite dress, but I was not that happy. I asked myself the following questions: “Is this the kind of job that I really want?” and “Am I the kind of person that I want to be?” My job is not exactly my field, but I justified that I should persevere in it since it’s the one that pays the bills. The demands of my job back then made me stay longer in the office most of the time to the point that my personal relationships were sacrificed. I went to a nearby chapel and prayed about it and asked for guidance.
Life unfolded and things did not turn out the way I planned it. I was not able to keep up with the challenges that I had in my job. Along with this, I also faced some struggles in my personal life. As a result, my confidence eroded. During these trying times, I was invited to join the Love Life Retreat. I knew I badly needed it and signed up without any hesitation.
The retreat was a two-day event that enabled me to reflect on my life. For me, it was a breakaway from the daily grind. For two days, I detached myself from my phone and communed with God. The sessions helped me to look back into my life and my learnings along the way. It somehow taught me to have a better sense of who I really am and what I would like to become. I became sensitive with what God was telling me.
I believe that God is creating a wonderful masterpiece out of my imperfections. My life is not always ideal, but He is a God of Order and I believe that the detours that I encounter will lead me to possibilities that I never imagined. I just have to allow him to steer me in the direction that He wants me to go.
It has been said that our feet are designed for us to walk forward and backward. But, sometimes we need to step back and ponder if we are really going out to the right direction. During the retreat, I’ve also learned that we need to get back to the source – our Heavenly Father.
To embrace the blessings that God has in store for me, I must Recharge, Recover, and let Him Restore me. I’m thankful to God for having done this in me through the Love Life Retreat*.